Thanks to Doonesbury for the inspiration today.
"The way that I work is by doing a lot of work. And out of that come ideas, refinement, more work, more ideas."
As it turns out, Dale Chihuly has suffered from from depression and bipolar disorder since his 40s. Didn't know that until just now as I did a little Googling about him. I'd always assumed he had inexhaustible energy for his work and felt envious.
There is a long-standing pattern in my life of setting out to work again and again and finding myself physically or emotionally derailed. A few days ago after I got out my paints, I developed a headache and an upset stomach. I have not felt well since that day, and my sleep has been disturbed. As Sabine wrote, "It is what it is."
Here are some of my linoblocks from the 1970s and early 1980s, my first years in Bellingham and a time of emotional turmoil and grief and searching for direction as well as experiencing periods of creative energy:
The second to the last linoblock is "Drawing A Sun Where There Is None."
The rest are untitled.
I may need to paint or weave or play music whether I feel good or not, as I seem to be able to blog whether I feel good or not.
That is a sobering and freeing thought.